therebutreinedyheadrestingoriedtotakendoffthepresentbyrecalliifulsesandpleasantexperiehepast.butit.theuglyrealityoorealandoverp.</p>

uardsethesaquestion.ilistenedfortheirfootsteps.sobedtotheieofpressure.sooftheingeredforantafteraskingtheirquestion;othersdidnotyansostiediately.</p>

apartfroheguards,thereusthavebeenthesoleoctofthatbuildingonthatday.ifthereoanlongago.</p>

ididnotkno,ieisolation,tiassudadifferentaningorhadnoaningatall.ionlykneylegsfeltstiffandheadaovingaslongastheguardsntioe.ylegs.araybayhaveryhot.itriedtogetsoreliefbyvingshouldersupanddown.</p>

afterstandingforayheadonknees,irested.perhapsihadsnaturingprayers.theniyneoveaslittleaspossible,butipelledselftodothesileexerentsduringthenightyselfgettingtense.breathingbeyselffroettingintoapaniuchaspossibleinthatnfinedspadiagain.</p>

thebestetosnapoutoffearethingpositive.eventhesileaovingbodyarounddefeelbetteriediately.ifihadjustsattherefeeliouseit.</p>

thenightdraggedonveryslooreifeltthatientboxdeepunderground.handsbeysolepreoe,ghtientlypaign,hepliptlybysuaopoints,thereisufferedrethanportant.ifhandsrippled,hoouldibe</p>

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